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I have not been writing for a long time. I do not know but I think this is a process. I have quit writing for some time, calmed my mind down and started writing again. Can I manage to go on writing without any intervals from this day on? I do not know that. I am not thinking about the future. I just wanted to write now and now I am in front of my computer,

Actually there are many things to write. Many experiences I gained in my classes. All physical, emotional and mental but I cannot make up my mind, relax and calm my mind down in order to write. Today is the right time and now I am writing.

A student who is interested in energy came to the class recently. Even though she wants to join every yoga class, she cannot since that class is taking place at an office during lunch time. Therefore sometimes some students can join and sometimes they cannot. When I woke up that morning, I was sure that this student would show up in class. It was the new moon time and I planned to do something related with the new moon. But in fact, I wanted this student who is dealing with healing and energy to do this. We had earlier talked about such plans but did not schedule any time. That morning I woke up and said, “this is the day.” I knew that the student was not always showing up in class but I had the instinct that she would that day. I was not wrong,

When I was about to enter the gym hall we were practicing, that student was getting out of the hall. She said, “teacher, I am coming today. I will join the class.” I said, “I had known that you were coming. I felt it because I would ask you to heal us if every one agrees. It is the new moon, new beginnings and for everything new.” The student could not object us and accepted the offer.

We began with meditation. Every one sat in a comfortable position. We wore socks and put on blankets in order not to be affected by the cold and the mind which could be affected by the cold. We began the healing with “Gayatri Mantra”, which has always been my favorite. I closed my eyes, focused on my breath, began watching my inhales and exhales and I relaxed my body. I leaned on a wall to feel more comfortable. I had been teaching yoga for so long time that I had forgotten to “take.” I was just giving energy but not receiving any. I reallly was in need of “taking” and “receiving.”

The new moon was happening in Taurus and its planet was Venus. So, we would work on “svadhisthana” (sacral) and “anahata” (heart) chakra, the student said. Listening to mantras and guided by the students, our bodies, minds and souls were flowing. My breath was calm and even stopped, I remember. I could not feel my body as if I had no body. There were colors and geometrical shapes in front of my minds. I thanked god, “my brain waves were moving from beta (stress mode) to alpha (meditation and savasana mode). This was the last thing I realized. Then I let myself totally be present with the mantras, the knowledge of my student and the flow. When mantras were following each other, the shapes and colors in front of my eyes changed. First two red lines came from right and left and hit each other in middle. Then colors softened and turned to parliament blue and just blue. I could not keep my head straight and still. It was dropping to right, left, front and back. Then there was no body. I was like flying. Some say that people rise from the floor when practicing yoga and meditation, which I have not witnessed myself, but if you ask if I had been off the floor, yes I would say I had that day. When my eyes were closed and my body was so light and listening to those mantras, I felt so light. As if I was a feet above the floor. That was really what I felt.

We laid down in “savasana” (deep relaxation and resting pose) at the end of the healing. When we were resting, the student came beside us. When she was with me, I felt energy spreading to my entire body from my crown chakra (sahasrara), from the top of my head up to the tips of my toes. I shrank and felt a vibration on my body as if my body was electrified. It was an unbelievable and amazing experience. I had not felt such an energy for a long time. Since I was a person who was always giving energy but forgetting to get, this healing was so fruitful and beneficial to me. I think energy givin people should sometimes remember themselves and join such practices.

I did not want to wake up after “savasana.” Unfortunately it was time to return to the real world and get away from that peaceful world. The student said,” actually it is not the right time to do this healing because the new moon has not been realized yet. It is about to happen one and a half hours and the effects will be better then. Normally I would not do this healing before the new moon happens because you cannot healed enough and benefit from it. But I felt that everybody needed this practice and therefore I did it. I had not thought that the outcome would bso good. Actually the moon has not entered the new moon phase and I could not be so giving and fruitful but I think that this is because you were so willing and in need of this energy and therefore we all benefitted. I am so glad.”

After that day, I made up my mind that I would start “taking” and “receiving” from time to time. In order for the cycle to operate well, we should sometimes take not always give. It was necessary to keep the give-take cycle equal. Neither giving more nor taking more. And one should always get healed, purified, refreshed, renewed and give time to herself/himself for peace and to try different practices.

My third class at the gym club where I am teaching yoga… New year’s eve… I entered the studio almost twenty minutes before the class. I used to see a few members waiting for me when I entered the studio in my first two classes. The studio was almost full only a few minutes before the class. This time, I was the first to get into the studio. I turned on the lights and the music and started to wait. At the same time, I panicked. Why had nobody arrived yet? Only 15 minutes were left. I remembered that it was new year’s eve and I thought that many people might not join my class because they were getting prepared for the new year. I went to the gym club of which I am a member in the morning and saw that it was emptier than usual. And I started to wait. I took a deep breath and then exhaled. I calmed my mind down.

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Suddenly the door opened and the first student showed up. Then the class started to become full of people. I was thinking that there would not be any yoga class that day but all of a sudden the class was full. I started to stretch and warm my body. At the same time, I was thinking about the peak pose of the day. Don’t misunderstand me. There were different alternatives in my mind. Should we bend backward and open our hearts or should be try an inversion and welcome the new year by looking from a different perspective? I made up my mind when I was looking at the students. I found the peak pose: “Sirsasana” (headstand). I wanted to make my new students experience something new on new year’s eve. Let’s see.
When opening the session with meditation, I told the students that we would try “headstand”. I told them that we would focus on “sirsasana” to be open to new developments and experiences in the new year. Nobody was saying anything but I could see that they were excited. I was excited too. They had had only two classes with me. Ok, they were joining yoga classes of other instructors at that gym club but I did not know whether they were ready for “sirsasana.” Whatever! I had made up my mind. We would try. We would not lose anything if we tried, be open to new developments and be brave.
Since the peak pose was “headstand”, the first half of the class foccused on strengthening abdominal muscles and the shoulder girdle. We gave priority to some balancing asanas and tried to tuck the tailbone in when practicing “tadasana” (mountain pose). We performed “phalakasana” (plank), “chaturanga dandasana” (low plank), “vasisthasana” (side plank/Sage Vasistha pose), “ardha salamba sirsasana” (dolphin pose) to strengthen abdominal muscles and the shoulder girdle. In order to work the abdominal muscles, we laid down, lifted the legs at 90 degrees and lowered and lifted them in three stages.
When I saw that their bodies were ready, I showed them two different types of headstand. First, the asana on which the elbows were on the ground and then the headstand in which we lifted our bodies on our heads and the arms. I told the class that they could try one of them or both. I also said they could stand by the wall or be pairs and help each other. Some students were very brave and they tried to get into the headstand on their mats (not by the wall). And even, it was the first yoga class of one of such students.
When everybody was trying “sirsasana”, I walked around the class. I helped every one who asked for my help. Some students tried the pose twice or three times. Some helped each other. Some carried their mats by the wall and tried the asana there.
Most importantly, everybody could get into “sirsasana” that day. Their bodies were physically well prepared for the asana. The bodies warmed up well and the necessary muscles were well prepared. But, warming the body up and preparing the body for the asana are not enough in inversions like “sirsasana”. Such asanas have a spiritual and mental sides. All class was more brave than me when compared to my first “sirsasana” experience.
I told about my own experience. “It took two and a half months for me to stand on top of my head.” When I said so, every one was so happy. They could do the pose this or that way in their first experience. That was the point. When trying “sirsasana”, I had fears and concerns. Standing upside down was not my kind of thing. I was a person avoiding risks. I was used to standing firm on my own feet. I liked standing on my own feet and did not like getting help and support of others. Therefore, it took some time for me to stand upside down. Actually, I was not afraid of looking at life from different perspectives. I liked crazy things, I enjoyed life and liked to try new things. I liked to wear colorfully, have fun and to be free. I liked to live without the support of others, which made me ground more and more. My “muladhara chakra” (root chakra) was developed a lot but my “sahasrara chakra” (crown chakra) was weak. To this end, I worked every day. I stood upside down, upside down and upside down. First, I made my muscles learn the pose. Then I cut my ties with my roots each passing day. Then one day, at the gym club, I was practicing on my own. And I saw that I was standing upside down. Believe me, I was so surprised. I told my students all about this story when they were resting in “balasana”.
It was the end of the class. The class got into “savasana” (deep relaxation and resting pose) after a few forward bends and a twist. I turned on one of my favorite songs during “savasana”. A song that drags me to some other places: Petra Berger’s “Eres Todo Para Mi”. Before playing the song, I told the students that this was a new year’s gift for them.
After “savasana”, we sat in a cross-legged position and I told my last words: “Being open to new developments and experiences, doing something new for ourselves, looking at life from a different perspective, trying to understand others, spreading more love and understanding to the world in the new year.” All these came to my mind when listening to the song. I did not know what the song was saying but it was touching me and made me love and be more understanding. We took a deep breath and wished something for the new year, and we spread our wishes to the world and universe when exhaling.
A few students came beside me after class. Some of them wanted to learn the name of the song. Some wanted to learn other places where I was teaching yoga to advise their friends and some asked whether yoga asanas could be useful in other activities and daily life. I tried to answer them as much as I can.
The class I began with some hesitations about whether it would be full or empty ended in a different dimension. Every one had his/her own experience and felt his/her own enthusiasm and happiness, felt the pleasure of resting in “savasana” and got the reply to his/her question. Maybe they could not get the reply they wanted. I do not know. For me, the only thing in my mind was that I could make the students feel the same impact as long as I went on practicing on my own, deepened in asanas, tried asanas that are hard for me and tried to fly and flatter, and used the songs which touched my body, soul and mind in my own classes.